I want to be Casper
As a lot of people know I’m participating in No-Shave-November. For the past week or so I have looked at myself thinking, “Oh dear God, I look foolish and I don’t like the way I look I should really shave.” I have not due to peer presure. There are a few people I can name off the top of my head that are doing the month long experiment that are good friends of mine. I have gone that week longer then I wanted to.
Today I was getting dressed and I had a problem picking out what I wanted to wear. I don’t know why but that really got me down. I ususally have a hard time figuring that out anyway but this time i had to worry about my face too. I feel like everytime I look at myself in the Mirror I look stupid. I don’t look good and to me self appearence is half the battle right now. Some people might not agree with that but that is what I think.
I stood in my closet for about 5 minutes thinking about what i should put on before I decided. It ended up being a stretched out long sleeve brown shirt and jeans with brown shoes and my brown bomber jacket. So I thought that Brown Man for some reason was the way to go.(Super Hero Anouncer) “Brown Man!!! Protector of all things nuetral and easy to not pull off. Brown Man!!! Why wear any other color when you can just use the same color multiple times in diferent articles oc clothing?!”
I looked at my self in the mirror once again and didn’t like what I was wearing but was late for class. I stopped at the door of my apartment thought about it again and left because I was late.
As I’m walking I still have this thought in my head, “Uh hey Sid, you look stupid in a few ways right now. One your face looks like you could rape someone. Two what you are wearing is WAY to over bearing with the brown. Last but not least I think you should tuck in the shirt but at the same time you tried that and you don’t want to look like a tool. Wait, haha, you already do because of your face. Idiot.” That was on the way to my first class.
After that class I went to Russian and on the way to russian it was the same thing. I just felt stupid. I felt that my appearence wasn’t good so in turn I felt down. I ran into Lisa and asked her advice. She let me in on the half tuck move and made me feel a bit better. There was still the issue of the face though.
So for most of the day today i have walked around not feeling good about myself. Really at all.
I don’t like that.
